Friday, July 14, 2006

The Trenches

Life starts with the rising of the sun or moon. Regardless the moment is priceless, after their arrival the day continues ask yourself am I ready for what is ahead.

When we are juniors in High School, we swear that the world is our domain and we shall conquer it by age 25. The truth is life is Sher Kahn and he is lurking in the bushes awaiting the first trip, stumble, or fall and when you fall life pounces on you with tons of drama. After reading this no one ever considers the consequences when entering adulthood like we have a chance, but it would be nice if we could create a plan or at least a rough sketch.

I have mentioned this before, but let me say again 6 years ago a BEAUTIFUL woman & her lovely daughter entered my life and in turn they showed me the importance of VISION. Lacking direction she reintroduced me to the doors of college. Together we created our goals. Well just this past Summer my lovely wife PROUDLY GRADUATED COLLEGE WITH THE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT & ACCOLADES OF HER PEERS (MR. BRITANNICA, MR. THESPIAN, AND MULAN) most of all the pride that immulates from her little ones.

Now for me, my journey began in the bob ross class. When the class started I thought my eyes would create a picture, mix colors, learn to view life more openly. But with the help of Peter Lowry my big meaty claws learned how to brush a canvas, compile a dictionary of colors, and most of all my mind & soul saw life in a Grander Scale. The sky was no longer sky blue it was chearilan blue (I think I mispelled it) and white was now Titanium white. The class in painting was important part of rebuilding my soul.

Unfortunately, my mind slipped back into its shell, losing its' focus. A portion of society will say that is up bringing that is the cause, while the other half will say you have a fear of growing up. The truth is I have always been afraid to grow up and not until recently did I want to admit it. Admitting a fear was a sign of weakness and I hope that by typing my fears on this blog my soul will cleanse itself. One of my greatest fears is making a crucial decision, but I realize if I fail to make a decision loved ones will suffer. It is not easy being an Adult, but one must remember if your children are to have a fighting chance they need every breath you can offer. I will never fail my family again, not to say I have but remember the sub conscious can play very cruel games on a persons' mind.

Now one problem that is consuming right now is complicated because it has 7 sub-parts and the weight of them carries deep on my mind with great peril attached to each:

1. Pucca's happiness
2. Belle's identity
3. Mulan's heart & soul
4. Maintaining the foundation to pay the bills
5. Secure the borders of my domain
6. Improve my health
7. Love my family like the there is no tomorrow (yes I realize that tomorrow is never guaranteed) Still my love and dedication is steadfast & true alittle sloppy at times, but still focused.

A friend once told me that his wife asked him at least once a day DO YOU LOVE ME. I asked him why did she ask, HE SAID BECAUSE THE WIFE DID NOT SEE or FEEL THE LOVE THEY ONCE SHARED. He quickly said that he loved his wife, but forgets to tell her.

I REMINDED THE FRIEND THAT FAILING TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR WIFE, BEST FRIEND, AND CONFIDANT CAN START A SLEW OF PROBLEMS HE WOULD NEVER WANT TO ENCOUNTER. HE TIPPED HIS HAT MOUNTED HIS HARLEY AND HURRIED HOME TO TELL THE WOMAN HE LOVED, SHE IS THE PULSE IN HIS HEART AND WITHOUT HER HIS LIFE IS POINTLESS.

AS YOU READ THIS IT MAY SEEM OFF BASE, SCRAMBLED, OR UNCOORDINATED BUT UNDERSTAND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME MY HEART AS TYPED IN MY BLOG.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND NEVER FORGET THE HOLY TRINITY LOVES US ALL AND THE POWER OF HEAVENLY FATHER MAKES LIFE PRECIOUS.

LOVE
THE CLIPPER

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Which way did I go???

Hey everyone long time no hear, for the past month my mind was frozen. Recently, my employer arranged a new position for me. The nice thing about this job is it is what I love to do, help those who are lost. After reading this statement it is clear that I have a problem. I yearn to help those who are lost, undecided, and unmotivated meanwhile my mind is screaming in a soundproof box.

My best friend has pointed out that if I fail to get off the shatter, disaster is an imminent possibility.


Allow me to use this forum to unload my mind. My life is complete and the outline is simple provide for the loved ones and insure their happiness. My problem starts when the stress factory opens and my psyche takes a nap and I feel completely empty.

First impression from friends and gossipers is he does want to be there.....FALSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The TRUTH is I want to be here and I want to wake up to the lovely brown eyes that grace my morning. The brown eyes in my life are asking for the simple things and for whatever reason my head is in my ASS. I do not like the opinion of others in my house, and the thought of someone directing my ship enrages me. So the simple answer is WAKE UP, but how do you awaken what is unseen by the naked eye. My searches quietly in the hallways of my mind and it is hopeful that shortly the answer will present itself. Wish me the best, will keep those interested updated on my walkabout....

goodday
The Clipper

Sunday, June 04, 2006

A time honored tradition

Tonight my family and I shared a beautiful evening, we watched the The Chroincles of Narnia. The movie was timeless, but watching as an adult I have realized that C.S. Lewis appreciated the play King Lear. The little brother in the movie (Edmund) started out as the Edmund character in King Lear, but at the end his heart took him to the side of Edgar. After watching this movie, my heart saw another side to life and I now want to spend more time reading to my children the Classics.


A short note to everyone, take time out and have a family night. Watch a Movie (The Chronicles of Narnia), Play a game (Monopoly, Operation, or Scrabble), or Simply take turns reading a book.

The Clipper

Travel in time and learn a lesson for a lifetime

Good Morrow, today was a quiet morning. The wife made breakfast, I made coffee, and the family enjoyed a blessed meal. The wife and I went to the GI Store to pick up a few items needed for the upcoming adventure.

After picking up the necessary items, the wife and I ventured over to the Old Fortress. At the front gate I spoke to the guard and asked if we could search the open plains. The guard told me that if I were to search the open plains, the local sheriff would have me thrown into the stockade. Stockade was not my favorite place to visit, so the wife and I went back home to pick up the family and go to the shore.

After picking up the family, the wife bestowed a beautiful gift unto me, a scepter that seeks out gold. The kids got dressed and we left for the shore. Once at the shore, I pulled out my scepter and began my search. 3 hours passed and all that was found was a soda can, the kids started to get cranky so we left for home.

The quest today was fun, and I thank my wife for the gift. I have learned there are rules to searching the open plains. Currently, I am consulting with the elders to insure my actions are true.

Above is my heart, painting an adventure hopefully there will be more share and bounties to discover. Looking forward to sharing my booty (discoveries...silly)

The Clipper