The TrenchesLife starts with the rising of the sun or moon. Regardless the moment is priceless, after their arrival the day continues ask yourself am I ready for what is ahead.
When we are juniors in High School, we swear that the world is our domain and we shall conquer it by age 25. The truth is life is Sher Kahn and he is lurking in the bushes awaiting the first trip, stumble, or fall and when you fall life pounces on you with tons of drama. After reading this no one ever considers the consequences when entering adulthood like we have a chance, but it would be nice if we could create a plan or at least a rough sketch.
I have mentioned this before, but let me say again 6 years ago a BEAUTIFUL woman & her lovely daughter entered my life and in turn they showed me the importance of VISION. Lacking direction she reintroduced me to the doors of college. Together we created our goals. Well just this past Summer my lovely wife PROUDLY GRADUATED COLLEGE WITH THE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT & ACCOLADES OF HER PEERS (MR. BRITANNICA, MR. THESPIAN, AND MULAN) most of all the pride that immulates from her little ones.
Now for me, my journey began in the bob ross class. When the class started I thought my eyes would create a picture, mix colors, learn to view life more openly. But with the help of Peter Lowry my big meaty claws learned how to brush a canvas, compile a dictionary of colors, and most of all my mind & soul saw life in a Grander Scale. The sky was no longer sky blue it was chearilan blue (I think I mispelled it) and white was now Titanium white. The class in painting was important part of rebuilding my soul.
Unfortunately, my mind slipped back into its shell, losing its' focus. A portion of society will say that is up bringing that is the cause, while the other half will say you have a fear of growing up. The truth is I have always been afraid to grow up and not until recently did I want to admit it. Admitting a fear was a sign of weakness and I hope that by typing my fears on this blog my soul will cleanse itself. One of my greatest fears is making a crucial decision, but I realize if I fail to make a decision loved ones will suffer. It is not easy being an Adult, but one must remember if your children are to have a fighting chance they need every breath you can offer. I will never fail my family again, not to say I have but remember the sub conscious can play very cruel games on a persons' mind.
Now one problem that is consuming right now is complicated because it has 7 sub-parts and the weight of them carries deep on my mind with great peril attached to each:
1. Pucca's happiness
2. Belle's identity
3. Mulan's heart & soul
4. Maintaining the foundation to pay the bills
5. Secure the borders of my domain
6. Improve my health
7. Love my family like the there is no tomorrow (yes I realize that tomorrow is never guaranteed) Still my love and dedication is steadfast & true alittle sloppy at times, but still focused.
A friend once told me that his wife asked him at least once a day DO YOU LOVE ME. I asked him why did she ask, HE SAID BECAUSE THE WIFE DID NOT SEE or FEEL THE LOVE THEY ONCE SHARED. He quickly said that he loved his wife, but forgets to tell her.
I REMINDED THE FRIEND THAT FAILING TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR WIFE, BEST FRIEND, AND CONFIDANT CAN START A SLEW OF PROBLEMS HE WOULD NEVER WANT TO ENCOUNTER. HE TIPPED HIS HAT MOUNTED HIS HARLEY AND HURRIED HOME TO TELL THE WOMAN HE LOVED, SHE IS THE PULSE IN HIS HEART AND WITHOUT HER HIS LIFE IS POINTLESS.
AS YOU READ THIS IT MAY SEEM OFF BASE, SCRAMBLED, OR UNCOORDINATED BUT UNDERSTAND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME MY HEART AS TYPED IN MY BLOG.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND NEVER FORGET THE HOLY TRINITY LOVES US ALL AND THE POWER OF HEAVENLY FATHER MAKES LIFE PRECIOUS.